I promised to love you ...

I promised to love you,
to protect you from all harm,
and to care for you.
To keep you safe throughout the nights keep you warm.

Sometimes I wonder how it came to this
Just don't think to spare me this
Perhaps the truth and time can set me free
From the half truths ensnaring me
A black hole of intensity
collapses on its density
And sucks me to a darker place
that hides behind blank space and a broken face

When you left me
the patterns in the distant stars
the loose threads of our lives' loom
When you walked into a room
The smell of your perfume
The taste of your skin
All those bitter reminders

How do I wake up, how do I sleep?
How do I laugh now, I can't even weep?
Where do I run to, where do I hide?

The sand, it falls in the hour glass
And time slips through our fingers fast
and I have no idea how long it will last

I am searching for peace of mind
but also keeping our love in mind